Excruciating Pain: A Personal Struggle Against the Mysterious Pain of Cluster Headaches

It was a dreary Monday in the morning in September 2016. I was working as a educator, trying to settle a new group of students, when a sudden sensation erupted behind my one eye. Then came rapid shocks, similar to lightning bolts. As the school day progressed, the discomfort eased and then came back with greater intensity. Multiple times that day I handed over a colleague with activities and hurried to the school bathroom to soak my face with cool water. I took aspirin, but the agony remained unrelenting.

The attacks appeared repeatedly that fall, and again in the spring, soon forming an yearly pattern. The autumn months were the most severe, then the late winter. I could anticipate the pattern: aura in the shower, early twinges on the train, full-on agony in class by 9.30am. In 2019, a doctor finally sent me to a specialist and I was diagnosed with cluster headache disorder.

This condition often start with intense pain behind one eye that persists for three hours.

Approximately 1 in 1000 people are affected by the condition, and men are more frequently diagnosed. Cluster headaches typically start with sudden, severe agony around a single eye that reaches its peak within minutes and continues for as long as three hours. Episodes come in clusters, daily or several times a day, and are accompanied by tearing eyes, drooping eyelids or face perspiration. There exists an episodic type, which arrives in seasonal cycles; some patients have continuous cluster headaches, defined by the absence of extended symptom-free periods.

What unites patients is the intensity. One research paper rated the sensation at 9.7 10, more severe than broken bones or other conditions. A separate found 64% of cluster patients experienced suicidal thoughts during bouts; the number fell to 4% when they were not in pain.

Val Hobbs, in her seventies, a long-term sufferer from Wales, isn't surprised. Her episodes started when she was a toddler. “I would hurl myself on the floor and bang my head. That was attributed to being a difficult child,” she says. Her condition deteriorated through childhood. Drinking in her teens, similar to several causes, made things worse. After drinking alcohol at her school leaving party, she recalls hardly being able to see on the bus home.

Her family often mistook her attacks as intoxicated behavior. Understanding finally came from her father and then from her husband, her spouse. “I was very fortunate to find such an exceptional person,” she says. Hobbs found office work after relocating, but often concealed her condition. She was dismissed from one job, in part due to time off during episodes. Her definitive identification came in 2002 at a specialist hospital.

Still, the failure to organize daily activities around erratic attacks took its toll. She particularly hated being unable to plan social events, being seen as unreliable as a co-worker, and even having to be looked after by her children during the paralysis caused by the most severe episodes. “It robs you of the simple liberties we don't value until they're gone,” she says. She remembers winning tickets for a major concert, only to have an episode inside a facility.


Headaches have been described throughout history. “The earliest description of headache comes by way of the ancient civilizations in antiquity,” write experts in a publication on the topic. They linked the ailment to an malevolent spirit who attacked his victims' heads.

Historical healing records suggest bizarre treatments for what modern experts would describe as a headache disorder. In the medieval times, severe headache was recognised as a distinct condition, with therapies including bloodletting to other, more superstitious remedies.

It was a European doctor who provided the first comprehensive account of a cluster-type attack. In his medical observations, he describes a patient “afflicted with a very severe headache occurring and vanishing each day at specific hours”.

Cluster headaches were only formally recognised by global medical societies in the late 1980s. From the mid-20th century to the 1990s, they were believed to be caused by a problem with a key artery that delivers blood to the brain. Prominent specialists in treating the condition note this.

In 1998, researchers published the findings of a study for which they had triggered attacks in patients and observed the attacks in a brain scanner. The results, published in a prominent journal, showed increased activity of the hypothalamus, which is responsible for human sleep-wake cycles, when patients were in discomfort, and a reduction when they felt better.

Despite such progress, diagnosis remains delayed. One man's attacks began in the 1980s and felt like “a balloon being inflated behind my one eye”. GPs thought he had a sinus issue; he had four surgeries before eventually being correctly identified in 2014, after a doctor researched his symptoms.

Neurologists say wait times in diagnosing and treatment occur because patients are seldom seen during an episode. “You're exhausted and depressed, but not in severe pain,” a doctor says. He works by eliminating other common head pain conditions, such as tension-type headache, before diagnosing the disorder. A detailed patient history is essential: on which part of the head do symptoms appear? For how long? What time of year? Are there precipitating factors, such as certain foods? Certain characteristics such as redness, drooping eyelids and stuffy nose help confirm cluster headaches. Once diagnosed, patients may be referred to dedicated clinics. But many first go to A&E or are given unsuitable treatments.

Dorothy Chapman, in her late seventies, has experienced the condition for the majority of her adult life, although she hasn't had an attack since 2016. When she was in her twenties, she had her teeth pulled because dentists misunderstood her symptoms. She believes dentists still need much more education. When another patient sought help from a support group, it was Chapman who responded. The author recalls calling a helpline during an attack in 2021; a reassuring advisor guided me through oxygen therapy and drugs until the episode passed.

Official guidance on management advise that sufferers are offered high-dose oxygen and/or a anti-migraine drug administered by injection. No oral painkillers or strong analgesics should be used. Prophylactic choices include verapamil, which apparently soothes the attacks of well-known people.

But consultant neurologists believe the official guidelines need updating to reflect a clearer clinical process and help general practitioners avoid incorrect prescriptions. For episodic patients, timing is critical: “The length of the bout dictates the approach.” Brief cycles with infrequent episodes are handled with abortive treatment alone. Longer or more severe periods require preventative medications such as verapamil, sometimes paired with corticosteroids. Many patients also receive a nerve block injection during a bout – an injection into the area of the head where the discomfort is that reduces nerve signals.

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